That title sounds like an episode of fullmetal alchemist or something, doesn't it? Or any angsty anime, let's be honest.
I have been neglecting the internet (tumblr and twitter and all my internet friends
and basically everything that isn't real life not fun things) because in
the past month my bookstore closed, and I moved in with my girlfriend
and her best friend. Now we're all moved in (just my girlfriend and me
so far) and I'm all unemployed and my dapper woman is off being the
breadwinner and I find myself struggling with a lack of purpose.
I
don't know what it is but I've had a growing depression in my head for a
while that is finally making itself known to me. It was like a virus
inside me since January and only a few symptoms presented themselves
until now, and they were symptoms that were easily attributed to other things, so I really didn't see this coming. So now, all of a sudden, getting out of bed is a struggle and I don't really have any good reasons to force myself to do so. Such feelings are a fucking pain in the ass when I'm at such an exciting time in my life, I should be happy and jumping on opportunities... Luckily the female is very patient with my moody ass, for which I am very grateful.
I lose motivation so easily.
Like just now.
Why was I writing this?
Ah, right, "reunion." Well. Being unemployed and purposeless as I am, (not to mention broke as fuck) I will probably be on the internet a lot more. So I can reunite with friends, get re-addicted to tumblr and twitter, play video games... I wish I knew a good messenger for mac... because my mac HATES msn messenger.
Loss of motivation
Sighs again
Wow, is it already almost 4pm? My only goal for the day is to get dressed, go to the apartment complex office, and get a copy of our lease so I can apply for food stamps. So I can eat something other than lattes every day. (I love having an espresso machine, it is my reason for living, and the reason I am never ever allowed to complain about our roommate.) I better get moving, the office closes at 6, and I am very slow moving these days.
xoxo
